Just one of those crazy exhausting horrible days

      well today has just been crazy! The day started actually last nigh with some super bad news and ended bad aswell! In such a short period I found out my gigi (great grandma) went back into the hospital, fell of my bike and messed up my knee again, broke my phone, got to the bus and barely missed it then waited for the next one to come already late and got stuck in traffic for 25 mins, was late to both the classes I have today, failed my pop English exam, and had gotten home only to find a stack of bills sitting in a nice pile for me ugh! with all this I really wanted to give up just curl in a ball on my bed and stay their forever lets just say i was more than feeling down i was feeling downer than down and i didn't know what to do... so I sat down alone in my room and finally just began to sob, I found that a good cry can be healing sometimes! I may not be feeling all sunshine and  rainbows and perfectly happy but i feel better! some what OK, like i may just be able to press on to another day. so what did i learn from this well i learned that no matter how bad things seem no matter how much i want to give up or I want to turn back to harmful habits its not worth it and their is hope and things do get somewhat better!
                                            love u all <3
                                                Meg

Reaching out

Reaching out talking actually saying something and not keeping my not so friendly friend ED a secret any more
The hardest thing to do fear... what will they think or say? will they understand? do I really need help? I have it all under control... fear fear fear I cant do this I cant I cant cant... some how courage finds a way to silence the the voices in my head I can I can I can can. the first visit to a psychologist what was I thinking? scared out of my mind I stand in front of the health office not sure if I can go in... I can I can I can come on I need this one step at a time I enter and sign in at the front desk... the first appointment so worth it... finally help I need I spilled my guts and told almost everything worth it worth it worth it I can I can I can!

I went to my first psychologist appointment and even though I was terrified to go I took a risk steeped out and now have a new member to my support team. Im so glad I went it was worth it and I didnt let fear win plus I think I found someone to truely trust some one who isn't judging and some one that wants to help. To tell the truth I felt so much better after my first appointment and can wait for the next one im back on the recovery boat and not going to fall off again ED watch out cuz Im ready to win the battle!

Intro

   Well here I am starting A blog... kind of random Idk if I'm going to ever really use it that much but I'll try to post some of my boring life lol anyways my name is Meg well its really Megan but I like Meg better, Im 18 and just started college. If there is one thing Ive learned so far in life it would be that no matter what you struggle with their is always help and always a road out, and your never alone! That road out isn't always easy but from what Ive heard its worth it! Life's a journey that we need to sit back relax and somehow enjoy both the good and the bad times.